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Donatello

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Morning after Donnie's drunken escapades..

[makesascene]

Remember to drink some water.

[soft_shelled]

[The reply is just a jumble of nonsense and some random images that don't make sense too.]

[makesascene]

[Leo is sighing on his side. He should just leave this alone...]

Please tell me you're alive, dum dum.

[soft_shelled]

[But Leo, your bro is hungover.]

loud.

[makesascene]

Where you at rn???

[soft_shelled]

y u care

[yep, not one hundo just by him sliding into chatspeak.]

[makesascene]

cuz ur my brother. duh.

[He's keeping this simple, since wow, Donnie doesn't usually type like this unless he's out of it.]

[soft_shelled]

yeah rite.

[Everything hurts, even using the brain computer hurts.]

[makesascene]

oh stfu, d.

you being a dick isn't gonna make me stop caring about you.

[soft_shelled]

no u.

[Donnie that makes no sense.]

[makesascene]

So, you care about me too. I knew it.

[soft_shelled]

no, just everything hurts rn.

[makesascene]

[If Donnie hadn't been a jerk, Leo would be so much nicer about this.]

whatever.

And yeah, no shit, sherlock. you got drunk last night and maybe drank one cup of water.

[soft_shelled]

i dont need a lecture.

[he is well aware he fucked up, but he is also not in a state to be nice about it either? he honestly just wants to be left to suffer alone.]

[makesascene]

Do you actually want help or are you just gonna wallow?

[soft_shelled]

what do you think.

[makesascene]

Normally, I'd just show up and check on you. Right now, maybe you should wallow.

You're acting like I wanted to hurt you.

[soft_shelled]

i know you didnt, with the arm.

[Sorry but the sacrifice is still something he has many issues with, even though it felt good to say all that he did to Leo last night.

Mostly the issue is he can't wrap his head around *why* Leo did it, like was it to repent for losing the key in the first place? Did he do it because Donnie wasn't good enough and Leo was left facing the Krang alone? Too many reasons, and he hates all of them.]

[makesascene]

Okay.

Remember Jupiter Jim and the Gilded Life Tree? How if that tree died, all life would be gone with it? Remember how Jupiter Jim's love interest sacrificed herself to ensure the galaxy would go on?

I had to make that kind of choice. If the krang won, there would be no earth. No home. No us. No April, No Pops, No one. Nothing. Just Krang. Forever. It's a shitty choice, but it felt like all I had, Donnie. What was I supposed to do? Just go 'Oh well, we'll think of a better plan?' We had been fighting all day, we were all on our last legs. There was no easy solution. I didn't like making it.

[soft_shelled]

[Of course Leo's making a Jupiter Jim comparison, and all the words feels like nails and he just doesn't want to discuss it.]

We could have found a different way, you didn't have to... you shouldn't have been alone.

[makesascene]

[It is the best way he thinks he can make Donnie understand, since his other option was soundly rejected, and vomited upon.]

What time did we realistically have? Minutes? I didn't even like that choice, but I knew it would work.

Its not your fault, my fault or any of our faults it happened. This was a bad situation that just kept getting worse.

[soft_shelled]

can we stop talking about this i hate this

[makesascene]

You're the one who lobbed this grenade, you have to deal with it! If you get to be mad at me for my choice, you need to actually talk to me about it.

[soft_shelled]

[His head hurt, his mouth feels like he ate cotton and he knows he can't handle this in a way that'll end well for either of them. But here he goes.]

fine, you want me to talk? fine.

do you even know what it felt like, to watch you just disappear? to feel like part of me died?

[makesascene]

I can guess, Donnie! Not perfectly, but, I've been that afraid of losing all of you before. I was so scared of messing up as leader, It's why I refused it for so long. If it was my fault you died, I couldn't live with myself. So, I can- at least kind of guess!

I'm sorry, genuinely, about that, okay? I hate that it had to be like this. I never wanted it.