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[He's going silent now, because he knows if he tells Leo the truth it'll make him feel bad but also... Leo wants to know, but also having Bucky point it out to him and just.]

Nothing, I'm just tired. [It's. Kind of the truth? He is tired of a lot of things, and most of it is hard for him to put to words and being a slime is not helping one bit either.]

[makesascene]

If you were just tired, you would've slept for like a couple of hours, then showed up in my room to read comics with me. [An occasional happenstance when the two have arguments with no real weight to them.]

Can you please actually tell me, or do you just wanna fight about nothing? [He has a vague guess as to what Donnie would prefer they do.]

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Not that kind of tired! [He snaps, back then he sighs at doing that. Because he really should just... He doesn't know what to do here.]

I want... I just want things to be normal. [There he said it, as to what normal is well. That's something different for everyone isn't it?]

[makesascene]

Okay, so you do just want... us arguing about stuff useless forever? [That kind of confirms Leo's thoughts, making him visibly tired. He takes a breath, not sure what to say for a second.]

Donnie. If we're staying here, we're going to have to make a new normal. Sometimes, that means things won't always be the same.

[soft_shelled]

... No. [Sure he likes the occasional argument, but not when they go like this.

As to a new normal, well... Donnie does not like.]

I know, I know but... I hate it. [Like knowing how something is is different from accepting it? He's not even sure how to say that though.]

[makesascene]

I don't mind play fighting with you, Dee. I'm just tired of it becoming so nasty out of nowhere. It's been happening way more recently. [He expects push back on that.]

I don't like it either, Donnie. I wish we could go home sometimes, but... I don't wanna be sad forever, you know? What is that even gonna do for us?

[soft_shelled]

[Donnie... Doesn't know what to say to that, because he really doesn't feel like it's gotten nastier lately. But then again, slime brain. So...]

I... guess so, sorry.

[Maybe apology will make things better? As to Leo saying not wanting to be sad forever well.] I know, but it's not just that it's... [Ugh, he doesn't want to admit this, at least not to Leo. Having Bucky say it and Donnie basically admitting it was one thing after all.]

I... I don't like that you're changing.

[makesascene]

Thanks. [It's a sign enough he's tired and no in the mood to play given how he accepts the apology, but doesn't make it a joke or try to rub it in Donnie's face.

His twin being that direct does stall Leo somewhat.]

I can't really go back to who I was before, Donnie. I'm still me, I've just become more me. A little different but still Leo.

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[He wants to say "why not" but he knows, he knows in his heart that that is the wrong thing to say so he just sits and is silent for what feels like way too long.]

I... I know that. Just.

What if that means you'll hate me?

[makesascene]

Donnie, I'm never gonna hate you. [Leo says this simply but firmly. He sits up a bit more, brow ridges pinching together.] You drive me crazy or piss me off, but I always love you.

We're twinsies, remember? Even if we're changing, that hasn't gone away.

[soft_shelled]

Yeah but... [Hrn, to actually say it and say it to Leo of all people is hard. But he should maybe actually follow the advice Bucky gave him.]

What if you change so much that you don't need me anymore?

[makesascene]

Donnie, I'm always gonna need you, you're my brother. [He emphasizes this very firmly.] It's not about... what you can do for me or whatever- I always need you.

You don't have to just be the inventions or genius guy. You can just be and I'll be here for you.

If you wanna join a punk band, I'll support you. Set a building on fire, I'm here with an extinguisher. You wanna become a mob boss, make room, cause I'm finding you a purple pinstriped suit. I'm here with you, Dee.

[soft_shelled]

You say that now. [Although it is reassuring the hear Leo say it, he still has his doubts and also well...]

I also almost smothered you over something stupid, the fact you're not holding that against me is nuts, Leo.

[makesascene]

I'm gonna keep saying it. [Leo says simply back, his tone full of a steady kind of conviction.]

Oh, I'm mad. I'm holding it deeply against you! I also know that actually talking to you right now about it is kind of useless, since you just keep getting distracted.

[soft_shelled]

[He's about to argue that it is not useless, he is not distracted but well... The fact he doesn't remember why he got so mad at Leo to smother his twin still remains. So he's silent for a moment or two before he does actually say something.]

Maybe I should look into ending this soon. The slime thing.

[makesascene]

[Leo sighs softly. He awkwardly settles himself back in his bed, trying to keep from jostling his ice pack off his wrist.]

It wouldn't be a bad idea, Dee. Only if you wanna. I don't hate you being a slime or anything, I'm just frustrated that we can't- quite work together super well like this?

[soft_shelled]

[Okay now that, that is getting Leo a look because well;]

You can say I've been a burden Leo, it's not like I haven't noticed.

[makesascene]

You aren't a burden- [Is said a little hotly back on Leo's part.] I'm just trying to adjust to you needing more help.

I'm used to our usual, you know? You getting all cranky about help, but usually not needing it. Now you need a little more than before. [If he didn't love his brother, he wouldn't be trying for something more gentle phrasing wise. He already knows Donnie feels bad about the slime thing, Leo isn't going to add to it.]

[soft_shelled]

[Yeah Leo trying to avoid adding to it? Doing the opposite effect here.]

Yeah well, you shouldn't have to adjust for me. Things should be how they are usually, and they aren't and it's my fault.

[makesascene]

[This is not going how Leo wants it to. He has to stop himself from groaning. Of course, Donnie is taking this badly.]

Donnie, sometimes you need to adjust cause stuff happens.

Remember how you guys adjusted when I was like a spider? You had to keep me from reorganizing everything constantly. It didn't always work, but you and Bucky made sure I was supported.

I'm returning the favor, you know? Family always got each others backs.

[soft_shelled]

Still, that was different. You getting fussy over how things are isn't the same as what's going on here.

[That and Donnie holds himself to much stricter standards then he does Leo.]

There wasn't a favor to return anyway.

[makesascene]

Fussy is not even the right word for it, Dee. I was on the edge of reorganizing the entire household semi-regularly. You two kept me from going crazy. [He points that out plainly enough, wishing he could actually point to make it more obvious.]

Well, too bad. I love your dumdum nerd face, so there. Take that.

[soft_shelled]

If you say so. [Donnie was aware of Leo's spider habits and helped keep them in check, yes. He just isn't aware of how that truly affected his twin.]

Ew, Leo. [Emotions, gross.]

[makesascene]

I know so. Given y'know, I kept cleaning your stuff and you kept wanting to strangle me, but refrained. [For the most part.]

[Leo sticks out his tongue in turn.] Haha, I win. You lose, get emotion'd nerd.

[soft_shelled]

That's because you kept moving things, I have a system!

[And just going to make a face at Leo sticking his tongue and his words.]